CRYING FOR
YOU, CRYING FOR US, CRYING FOR HOME
Crying for you,
woman that I love so much, Crying for us, I want to
feel your soft touch.
Crying for home,
the country where I felt me accepted, I wish this
never had happened, being from there
ejected.
Tears are
rolling, so afraid to loose you again,
but you are
telling me that you will not leave me, your white
man.
You promised so
much during all those years, a few didn't came out
and I ended up in tears.
Everytime you
leave the visit, I'm afraid that was the last time,
and believe me, I really don't feel fine.
I'm so afraid to
loose you for good,
my Jamile, I am
crying and in such a sad mood.
I wish that God
could tell me what's gonna happen now,
I know you want
me right away together with you, but
how?
I am missing our
country, our people, just everything, over there I
met you as my Princess and me your Teddy
King.
Everything
hurts, in every vain,
don't give up my
Angel, I don't want that pain.
It is now
already a suffer as hell,
even you told me
“How could you handle that alone so well?”
Only because you
wrote and told me to go on, to not give up on you,
to stay that strong.
I don't know
what to think anymore,
I feel me as
garbage, as a used street whore.
We would try it
over here in Europe and it would work out, that were
even the words from your mother, very clear and
loud.
And what about
my son, we made such a nice plans together, but now
it seems as he don't care anymore, as it don't
matter.
I only can cry
and pray that everything would become okay, I really
don't want you to go again from me away.
Stop feeling
guilty that I am here thanks to you,
I have forgiven
you, I want you as my wife, knowing you want this
too.
You are my
energy my sweet lovely Jamile,
you know that
very well and it all started in 'our' Brazil.
I asked you or I
will see Brazil in this life again?
I can hope but
so afraid for a 'No', I am. I didn't know that life
can be so bad,
Again, they
better had killed me there, just a bullied through
my head.
Then no one
needed to be worried now for me, but then I had been
now where I was so happy to be.
ALEX MENSAERT –
MAY 30, 2015 |